Now that I remembered that my Tumblr even existed, I thought I’d post again. So much has happened, I don’t even know where to begin. I graduated high school, and started my new life in college, studying what I’ve always wanted. The past few years have been filled with loss, disappointments, change, new friendships, and lots of moments where I wanted to give up, but I don’t regret any of it. I’m a strong believer in the idea that everything we go through, both good and bad, has influence over us, and creates who we are to become. I’ve been asked before what I would change in my life if I could. I honestly wouldn’t change anything. My home life is far from perfect, I don’t socialize as much as I probably should, and I lose loved ones time and time again, but in my heart I keep home that it will all lead to something better.
For Christmas, I got a cupcake wish necklace from my grandma. It opens up, and you’re supposed to write down what you wish for/pray for most and put it inside. I wrote down a quote from a friend of mine:
“It will all be okay in the end.”
Through it all, that’s all I really want. That everything each of us goes through will be worth it in the end. Right now, I’m working towards that. I’m a Psychology major, so I can eventually become a therapist and specializes in either suicide prevention. I can empathize with the desire to throw it all away, but I’ve learned to see the beauty in life as well. I have the power not only to change my life for the better, but to help others change theirs as well.
I never bothered to believe in wishes or prayers before. Because of countless disappointments, I assumed it was pointless. What I do believe in is setting a goal to aspire to. It’s supposed to be a wish necklace, but I’m using it as a reminder to the future I want to create for myself.
Everyone has that power. Do what makes you happy.