February 2012
21 posts
She knows me too well.
Professor: Let's say Emily has a big, pink Hello Kitty suitcase. Because I know she'll love it.
Me: *claps and bounces excitedly in seat*
Best Buddies
Last night after the Best Buddies event, I was asked to be an officer for next year! It’s been bittersweet this year, since a lot of the organization reminds me of my sister, but also good because I know I’m a part of what she loved, so I was unsure of whether I was going to keep at it next year. But I’m accepting. Now I just need to decide whether I want to be event coordinator,...
Hoping this will be cathartic.
Today makes exactly 6 months since my older sister died, and I have no idea what to do with myself. I suck at expressing when I’m upset, and the usually the only way you can tell is if I’m quieter than usual. If I try to talk about it, there’s almost a mental block, and I’m so overwhelmed I end up going numb. Since I can’t seem to get myself to say anything verbally,...
Don't ever hesitate. Reblog this.
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Inspiration.
For a friend’s birthday, I bought a mini notebook and wrote down as many inspiring quotes I could think of/could find. There were a lot that I loved, and so here’s a list of my favorites.
“Happiness can be found in the darkest of times, if one only remembers to turn on the light.” ~ Albus Dumbledore
“If you don’t stand for something, you’ll fall for...
“Fine! You stay in your prison of fear, with bars made of hopelessness. And all...”
– Kung Fu Panda 2
That moment when you finish a book, look around, and realize that everyone is just carrying on with their lives as though you didn’t just experience emotional trauma at the hands of a paperback.
Oh, college...
Don’t get me wrong, I love the school I go to. I met so many amazing people here, and I feel like I can be myself without worry. I guess I just have the habit of taking on more than I need to, and it’s starting to overwhelm me. My Health Communication 481 class is really cool, and I love my professor. I had her last semester, and she’s like a big sister. It’s great....
I don't even know.
most-awkward-moments:
sticks and stonesÂ
may break my bones but chains and whips excite me
January 2012
4 posts
“In the time that I spent in this high school, I worked hard and faced many...”
– Nagisa Furukawa
Hello again.
Now that I remembered that my Tumblr even existed, I thought I’d post again. So much has happened, I don’t even know where to begin. I graduated high school, and started my new life in college, studying what I’ve always wanted. The past few years have been filled with loss, disappointments, change, new friendships, and lots of moments where I wanted to give up, but I don’t...
June 2010
1 post
It's been a while.
I haven’t updated this in a while. I set it so now I can update from my phone, through text. We’ll see how that works.
I got back from vacation yesterday. We went to New Jersey for my older brother’s wedding. It was really pretty, and simple. I’ve never heard of self-unity, but it’s really interesting. There’s no priest, but you both sign a legal document, and...
February 2010
5 posts
I don't see why I bother.
I’ve been thinking that exact thing for a while now. I don’t see why I even bother trying. All I want is the ability to just give up on everything. I don’t even see why I’m bothering to update this. It’s not like anyone actually gives a damn about whatever I have to say anyway. I’d be thoroughly surprised, if someone does. A rabbit dying probably seems like a...
Listen
New phone?
I got a new phone last night. I wasn’t really supposed to, since my old Alias’ plan expires in June. But it was my 3rd try with that model, because they kept breaking in some way or another. The Verizon dude said that I could just use my dad’s upgrade eligibility to upgrade my own phone. My mom needed a new phone anyway, so we went with the enV Touch, since it was buy one - get...
Past myspace blog post. Still relevant?
I found a blog post I made on myspace a while back. Like, almost a year ago. It’s one of those that you can read over again and pull something out of it. Because of how my overall mood has been lately, it doesn’t help as much as it used to. But I figured I’d post it on here in case it has a chance of helping anyone else. Not that anything I’d write would be worth an impact,...
December 2009
1 post
~ 12/3/09 - A day for memory. ~
Yesterday, 6 of my friends from another school got into a car accident. The snow was blinding when they were on the freeway. The driver swerved, and into oncoming traffic. 2 are being hospitalized, 1 is in a coma, and 3 died.
RIP ~ Steven, Shanna, and Lauryn.
I’m still in shock. I can’t believe this actually happened… it was all over the news here. It’s unbelievably hard...
October 2009
2 posts
Alone in a Crowd.
That’s our band theme for this year. Tomorrow’s our state championships, and then in November is Nationals. I’m really nervous, honestly. We’ve won 1st for the past 4 years in a row, so I’m worried about the chances of the judges not wanting us to win again. We’ll just have to give them a kickass show, to show we deserve it.
*knocks on wood for good measure*
...
August 2009
1 post
Probably should update this, eh?
It’s been a while. Not much has happened, besides band things.
We started band camp last week. It was hard to adjust at first, but I think I’m getting the hang of it. Our show is really cool this year. But our first performance is during the football game Thursday night, so we’re kind of in a rush to learn it all. So far we’ve gotten the first two songs done, which really...
July 2009
4 posts
I'm not dying! Hurray?
I don’t know if anyone actually reads these. But oh well.
I had a doctor appointment today! Apparently I’m anemic, which is an iron deficiency in the blood, so the heart has to work harder. That’s how the heart murmur came about. I was told it was pretty common in vegetarian teenage girls. :/ Also, the chest pains I’ve been having is apparently due to excess stomach acid...
Well, I figured out what the hell happened...
Apparently the intense chest pain was crazy heartburn, which can trigger asthma. Because I couldn’t breathe, my body went into shock.
…Fun, eh?
It’s also because I don’t eat very much. >__>; I’m working on that. I had my dad buy me a bunch of food from the store, so I’m all set.
Nice to know I wasn’t dying, right?
Emily.
I hate needles.
I might as well blog about this, I guess. I had a huge scare today. :/
I was rushed to the hospital around 4. Basically, I had intense chest pains, laboured breathing, my hands fell asleep and I couldn’t move my fingers, my face went extremely pale and my lips were blue. It was scary as hell. I thought I was having a heart attack or something. We were on our way to pick up my friend’s...
Having the '!' back is bittersweet.
When your favourite band splits up, you’re never really sure how to feel. Angry, upset, confused, numb.. Perhaps I’m overreacting. But I loved Panic so very much. With both Ryan and Jon gone, I don’t see how it’ll be the same. Ryan’s lyrics are what drew me to Panic in the first place. And Jon’s.. a winner at life. I thought he was a great addition to the band....
June 2009
8 posts
“Sometimes obstacles are put in your way to see if what you want is really worth...”
Just take a deep breath.
I need to remind myself to do that. I’m extremely pissed off. I don’t like venting but it’s going to bother me forever if I don’t.
Every marching band season, the flute section has two section leaders, who help the younger flutes march and play better. These are normally seniors, unless special circumstances are needed. This year, there are two senior flutes. But one of...
So today didn't completely suck.
Which is always a good thing, right? :)
I was originally dreading babysitting, since it’s been months since I’d done it last. It was fine, though. He’s a cute little 4 year old. We basically just watched movies, then went outside and ran around and stuff. It was pretty fun. And I got $20 for it, which I can use for the concert tickets I still need to buy… haha. It’s...
Today was a pretty good day.
So I got my cartilage pierced today. It’s shiny and awesome but it hurts like hell to clean. :/ Oh well, I’m happy. <33 I plan to get a second one on the same ear after it heals, then get hoops for both after the second one heals. It’ll take a while, but it’s worth it.
I also bought the supplies for confetti cupcakes. <33 You know me and my cupcakes. I also bought...
“A person’s a person, no matter how small”
– Horton from Horton Hears A Who
I fail at keeping blogs.
I always forget about them, even if I don’t mean to. :/
Anyway, I’ve barely been on the computer lately. It’s final exam time, so I’ve had to study a lot. It sucks, but I want to do well. I’ve gotten through my Graphic Design, Honours English, and US History exams. Thanks to studying my ass off they were pretty easy. Now all I have left is German, Biology, and Wind...
May 2009
6 posts
Tired...
Very tired today. This is my last full week of school, and I already want summer to come. Next week Friday I have an early release, a day off on Monday, and then the next week (I think) I have exams. This year seemed to go by slower than last year. But as much as I want it to be summer… I’m seriously going to miss the senior flutes. We’ve been through the past two years together,...
Rogo Quotes! ((social studies teacher.))
Rogo: By the way, badgers don't eat saltine crackers. They eat your hand.
Rogo: Pull up your pants. Nobody wants to see your boxers in the yearbook. That'd be a great section. Of all the saggy pants. 'Guess the owners of these boxers!' It'll be great.
Rogo: *stare* ...You confuse me. And that's very difficult to do.
Rogo: Just so you know, if you fall asleep I'll throw a desk at you.
Rogo: He could probably pwn me with one foot.
Rogo: Think of it as a nightlight. It may seem small in the darkness, but the closer you are, the bigger it gets. There has to be a ray of hope.